Adventures in Mothering, Being a Writer, gallery Tuesday, December 16, 2014
I told a close friend the other day, "I feel like such a hypocrite."
A little over three weeks ago my newest book released into the world! It was exciting!
To say my life has been more chaotic than blessed since my book release would be a grave understatement.
I truly do not know how to begin to explain how life has felt.
I have drafted an "I quit blogging" post about three times, I've wanted to delete facebook and twitter at least six times, and more times than I count every day I feel like I'm living this fake life online vs in person.
I'm struggling to find the blessings in the midst of the chaos. I'm struggling to get through.
I know I don't want to quit blogging, but I have lost my voice. I can't quite find the balance of writing authentically in the aftermath of this book release, when life has been really hard, without being terrifyingly honest.
I also understand that this is more of a "life" problem than "book" problem, except that it all started after my book released, or even right before.
Being a writer is hard.
I poured my heart onto these pages wanting to inspire others by our story, and now I feel like I've lost my inspiration. Life has been hard these last three weeks, and I am just surviving despite how hard I've tried all year to move past this mode and thrive.
Being a mother is difficult. Times four.
My kids need so much from me. We are entering those months when we are cooped up and at each other's throats.
I'm incredibly sleep-deprived and the count is now up to five, for the number of people in my house that are not feeling good (of which I am included).
I know I will get through, but right now it feels like I am going to be swallowed up in the ocean of responsibility and expectation and desperation.
I don't have the energy to tie this post up with a beautiful bow. I just needed to let you know where I am.
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